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There were just so many unspoken feelings
I couldn't get it out no matter how I tried to arrange the words
Though at last I tried,
I always received the response I didn't want

I cried in my room a lot,
being just by myself, crying,
without having anyone to lean on to.

They said having a lover supposed to make your burdens feel lighter.
Why mine doesn't?

Was it because of me,
or him who couldn't understand what I felt
or what?

I can't say he's wrong,
I can't say anyone is wrong in responding to one's story.
But I don't think I wanted the response I get to every story is this similar kind.

I never wanted anything but companion.
Yet that's the only thing I can't get.

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Fri, 17th of May 2019
Indekos. With laughters,
but from two rooms away.