(I also hope I would understand whatever I've written this far)

I only feel like writing when I'm alone.
No matter in what situation, whenever I feel sad and lonely there are thousands of phrases running through my head.
Just like tonight.

Forgetting about the tests I have tomorrow,
tonight I'm lonely and sad.

Have you ever felt like you're such a big waste?
Like, everything you do is a big regret of time and energy and emotion and everything.
No matter it's a good or bad thing, you think you're gonna regret them soon.
This anxiety is such a disease.
It disturbs.
It doesn't feel right.

(it's 12:01 am and I don't know what I'm writing)

Everything becomes worse when you make a mistake.
One little mistake, then all your kindness becomes nonetheless.

(I still don't know what I'm writing)

You would easily give everything in the name of love,
but it's so hard not to give everything in the name of love.

It's so easy to give everything to the person you love,
but it's so hard to reject one thing from the person you love.

Especially when that something is the thing that destroys you.
possessiveness, pushed emotions, coercive actions, etc.

(I also hope I would understand whatever I've written this far)