Take-off Position, Ready?

Well, hell-o!

It's been a rough, tough week (as the weeks before, actually). But, yea. I finally built my ambitions (again)! Too much sadness until I couldn't even feel it anymore.. So I started to think about the other things, such as: "Hey, Neen, have you even got accepted to college yet? What the hell were you thinking? Is being pathetic like this will help you through SBMPTN and the other 'life-tests'?" AHAHA. Yes. I literally said that to myself.

It's the 4th week of April and I haven't seen any progress(es) from myself in probably.. ANYTHING. Yes, I am exposing my own bad side, but hey, I am doing this for a reason. If one day you guys see me at the top of the world, you can read about the struggles I've been through, all the things that 'hampered' me at the beginning, and also, the stages of my pathetic-ness.

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Yogyakarta,
21st of April 2017. 8:08 AM.
Happy birthday Ibu Kartini, and Athaya.

New Sadness, New Writings.

10:56, Lantai Bumi Coffee & Space.

Thinking, figuring out, and being confused. 

What the heck is going on with my life? What am I going to do with all the mess I made? It’s been, I don’t know, it’s since forever that I’m stuck with these mixed up feelings that I can’t even figure out. Everything’s a mess. Everything’s uncontrolled.

There, that is the writing of an extremely depressed teenage girl. It’s worse when you see her in real life; burned skin, a pair of kate-spade-worth eyebags, and a frown that literally completes her depressed appearance. *sips her morning caffe-latte*
But, hey, it's not going to be that bad.
Cause I'll see myself drowning in (sad) writings.
to prove: https://www.wired.com/2010/10/feeling-sad-makes-us-more-creative/

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Yogyakarta,
16th of April 2017. 11:27.
Lantai Bumi knows all my secret.